I like making friends. Friends are important. I like being a friend. I like helping out.

This probably sounds so like nate the first grader but I am trying to state a point. Friends are important everyone of them.

I am frustrated right now because I have made some friends recently and things haven't been all smooth sailing between us.

There is a song that oftens comes to my mind. I'm a b***h. I'm a lover. I'm a child. I'm a mother.

And I am all of these. I can be a b***h. But it is never intentionally. I believe in certain principles. And if I believe in something strongly. I will stand up for what I believe.

I think right now I am coming across as a b****h.

I got married at 19 I had to learn to fight for what I felt strongly about. My husband is not an unreasonable man, but some ideas I have had he has just thought they were a waste of time. I proved him wrong time and again. I pursued a certificate in nonprofit and he thought it was a waste of time and it took me away from my family unnecessarily. But you know what I work at a nonprofit and have for over two years.

You know the godfather's famous line. It isn't personal. Its just business.

Right now I am fighting for something I believe in and its just business. It isn't personal. Not fighting with fists but just standiing up for what I believe. Doesn't matter what it is. Make it whatever you think it is.

And this is what is happening between a friend and I something that's business is spilling over into my personal life and I think it will affect a friendship.

I wanna work together and hold hands and sing kumbayah. I wanna compromise, but there are just some issues I will not compromise on.

Maybe I am the problem. I don't know. But I don't know how not to be so involved.

Let's toast to friends, drama, meditation, relaxation and coming to a solution. You gotta take the good with the bad. And let's hope for unity. It is really what I want. But maybe its time to remove my rose colored glasses, but I like them so much


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